unculturedswine

So I discovered a gross reality this morning, and it honestly makes me a little bit sick. I have google analytics installed on my websites, and they’re handy for showing you just about everything about the people that visit your websites. You can see what pages people view most, what keywords they use to find you on search engines, how long they’re staying etc etc. You can also do a ‘site overlay’ feature where they show you percentages of people that click on each link on that page.

I get pretty okay traffic to this site, but I did the site overlay today and noticed something that made my heart sink… no one notices the links to my picture galleries!! They make it to my site, but they never find the pictures. They don’t see the meat of the website!!! I’ve buried it too many links down. Grrrrr!!!!

I’m fixing this TODAY. This is so disappointing.

UPDATE: I fixed it. I feel quite relieved now. And for a 30 minute fix I think it looks pretty good. It will be interesting to see if suddenly I get more contacts. It only makes sense that they’ve been slim, nobody ever got to see my product! Only words!

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I’ve got a lot going on right now, but it feels like I’m not accomplishing anything in the process of changing. I’m not following my own resolution very much. There are things in my life I want to change, but it seems like I have to change everything and I’m scared to go on… I exist in a certain level of comfort, but I feel uneasy with where I am. How’s that for contradiction?

I sure wish I was open. I’m such a closed person. I believe I talk so cryptically on here, trying to use metaphors and blanket statements to cover up what I really want to say. I guess part of me hopes that when I read over this later, I’ll remember what on earth I meant and hope that I made some progress since then. It all boils down, however, to the fact that I’m closed to those closest to me. Maybe I fear things will change with them if I open up, if they get to know the real me, my real problems, my real thoughts. However, I need to believe quite the opposite; that friendships and relationships only grow and openness is found and trust deepened. Someone unlock me?

I am tired of a few things though; winter, my bedroom, money, procrastination. Those fleeting moments of pure inspiration when i realize things to do, and have incredible hope for the future don’t drive me as much I need them to; I sacrifice them too quickly to the alter of procrastination and doubt. I don’t feed the fire, I don’t keep them alive. And then I find myself where I am at this moment; full of thought yet full of doubt. Oh to believe and to ACT on that belief! … To make it happen. To just DO IT.

Life is controlled by choices, how we react to situations that are both placed before us and chosen by us. I need to rephrase that… how we ACT to generate situations and choices. That is how we need to live. As I’ve quoted here before, ‘I am the Master of my fate’.

It’s 3pm. I’ve been here at work since 7. I know 7 isn’t that early, but for me, here at work, it is. Usually I go work out at the gym and get here around 9. So it’s been a good 8 hour day so far and it’s just begun! I think I’m gonna go home though here in a minute. But, I wanted to write just a lil bit.

I met with Spin Magazine, well, Spin Marketing today and talked to them about being an Event Photographer. I’m pretty excited about it. I’d basically just attend parties and big events and take pictures of people and party-goers. Sounds pretty easy, right? I think it will be. Next Friday is my trial run, and if they like me then I’m off to the races. I’ll have 2 or 4 things to go to every week and snap snap snap away. I do love taking pictures.

Just FYI – the left shoe gnome is still hard at work. My show is untied at least once a day. Umm, that’s it!