Life going by; Am I on Auto-pilot?
Tonight I sit back and think about things and just ask myself if I’m the one in control of where my life is going. Part of me thinks I’ve just given up on directing myself anymore. I’ve been so overwhelmed with tasks, and disappointments, and outcomes that I just don’t know if I even know what I’m doing with myself. I’m making choices on a whim, and easily giving up on long-chased dreams. Free agency dictates everything, and unfortunately sometimes the agency of others didn’t choose my way and I think that’s put me in a state of apathy that, oddly enough, I just don’t care enough to get out of. Is it a dangerous spot to be in? Maybe, depends on how serious the danger is? Beats me. I can’t tell anymore. I don’t know if I ever even knew how to.